I realized something: I secretly lose a little respect for people that display “interest” in me (attraction, sexual, intellectual, etc). Because what kind of a person would ever be attracted to me? What is wrong with this person?
I am so happy to realize that I think like this. To have this thought exposed to me.
Because now I can let it go.
A true miracle.
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February 14th, 2010 at 1:49 am #
You’re really very interesting. Even more since you’ve taken up ice skating.
February 14th, 2010 at 8:18 am #
ha! Jon, you just made me blush like crazy. hahahahaha!!!!
February 14th, 2010 at 4:09 pm #
Totally unrelated, so kind of funny to drop by here to say:
Happy Valentine’s Day, bfp!
February 14th, 2010 at 9:08 pm #
Yes please let it go.
A woman once told me this and I had to stop liking her right there. Cause you know I liked her!
February 15th, 2010 at 7:50 am #
well shit. so all this time you’ve had no respect for me. (cos it’s ALL ABOUT ME, claro).
seriously though, letting go is good. I need to do some of that kind of letting go – of my ridiculously low self-esteem – myself. It’s like a blanket that doesn’t keep me warm. I need to let it go but if I do, I might be even more cold and there’s no other blanket around. hmmm, what a hackneyed metaphor. whatev
February 17th, 2010 at 7:21 pm #
i was just talking about this very thing with a potential new lover last night! yes! i do this too. I know my ex did this to me. As soon as I even put my little finger into the aura of his radius, of what he saw as him, he lost respect. It comes from self hate and we can all let it go. Start seeing people who don’t like us as the screwed up ones.
no kidding, but yes, i do this same same thing
February 20th, 2010 at 6:12 am #
Wow, thanks bfp. I totally do this too. And now it’s explicit in my head. Not sure if I can let the habit go just like that, but I’ll have to try.