2 responses to “Remembering the Sun”

1. Sungold
   December 27th, 2009 at 6:12 pm #

   Oh, I am just such a sucker for flowers with bees. I teared up at the beauty of this when I saw it on my blog reader. Then clicked through to your actual blog, saw you’d tagged it “depression,” and teared up once more. I hope it helps to know you’re spreading a little joy – but I really hope the joy comes reflected back to you! Thanks, bfp.

2. bfp
   December 28th, 2009 at 8:52 am #

   sungold–thank you so much for your kind words. I’m feeling Sooooooooooo much better than I ever have during the winter. I have been doing light therapy among several other things, and it’s changed my world.

   but the thing I discovered is that even as I feel so much better–so much farther away from gray mush–I am still needing to just admit. All the light therapy in the world isn’t going to stop the fact that my body and my mind and my soul is needing a really deep warm cave right now. I can come farther into the light than I ever have–and hunt a little food when I’m hungry, and even laugh at the silly birds playing. SOmething I’ve never been able to do *ever*. But even so. I still need to go back into my cave and sing really sad songs.
   

   So…thank you so much for the kind words–they help, they really do. ANd it does make me feel really good that I can actually *hear* the words.