BFP – It looks like the picture did not upload! I am trying to upload it from photobucket.

I’ve had a lot of trouble writing since I left school, too–although I was looking forward to having all this time to write when I was *in* school. I’m not sure if I need more structure like I had in school, or if I need to undo all the crap that structure left me with. It’s probably both: as you said, bfp, it’s definitely a case of having all this free space and not knowing what to do with it for me. Perhaps structuring a regular time to write (like, for a set time every day) but not worrying too much about what I’m writing or how perfect it is would help.

Cecelia, your poems are powerful!

Yes a bath is a renewal space for me. Self love and self nurturing are so important at this time in my life!

I hope you can create a poetic and creative space soon! Sometimes you need to do things like move the furniture around or move energy around. Whatever you do you can create a space where you will write,draw, doodle, dance, sing or paint freely. I had a similar issues after grad school. I called it “post traumatic graduate school disorder – ptgsd.” I rushed to finished my MA by the time I was 24 years old but was sick, tired and worn out at the end of it. So I could not write anything academic for the longest time. That is why I have created a space to do everything poetic, free and creative. It is true it has been a way for me to unwind from academic rigor and exhaustion. I am building up my reserves for future super structured activities, haha!

Ohh – now my friend is taking me out to some yummy dinner… I will try to post one picture I have of my collage art when I get back! …

For me, mujer is writing and reading poetry/short stories/life experiences/the munchk in my life.
But to get there in the midst of this chaotic life is hectic. I go there only a couple times a month..that decolonized creative space. I am working to find a better way….
much love,

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You know, i struggled after I left school too–and after a looong time of working through it–I think it was that I finally, for the first time in 8 years, had the space to write whatever the hell I wanted whenever I wanted for whatever reason I wanted to–And I had NO idea what to do with that space, even though I had been dreaming of it for at LEAST four years!!!! It was SO hard for me to undo the structure and strictness of university writing and relax into a more free flowing, ok with mistakes, thinking through things as I work rather than having a solid idea finished and perfect type of writing.

i wonder if there’s something like that for you too? a reclaiming of your brain space happening?

Title: Good English

March 13, 2008

I’ve got this articulation nation,
Genocidal discomfort to speak of,
In good English,
I can’t articulate hate,
Or debate what is your fate,
In attempting to conquer every noun,
Adjective,
I don’t care,
We speak of peace in our Native tongues,
Which may not be good English in your eyes.

—–

“no title”

March 15, 2008

Aboriginal,
Indigenous,
Native,
Supremacist,
Mix it,
Shake it,
Give me the best topping,
For the reason why,
We annihilate,
The true doctors,
Priestesses,
Medicine men,
Medicine women,
Midwives,
Saints,
Sages,
Of the Earth,
To find out that we annihilate ourselves.

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That is it for now! I should post more of these poems to my blog! Maybe I will come back and post some postcard collage art. Right now I am going to delve in a delicious bath!

I’ve been really hard pressed to write since leaving school, and i’m struggling with why that is.